Tuesday 28 January 2014

It's my pump and I'll cry if I want to

Morning blood sugar: Switching it up these days with a 4.8
Episodes of low blood sugar today: None today. Saturday however was a rough day with 3 (yes, 3) episodes including one doozy of a 2.9 that I didn't even really feel. My girlfriend Laura was over with her toddler for dinner. We were having pre-dinner snacks with a glass of wine when I tested simply so that I could cover my snacks. Maybe a delayed low from my 15km that morning? Maybe I took too much insulin as I was compensating after a Friday of super highs (tested an 11.1 at work in the afternoon-I guess Cliff bars remain the devil to a Diabetic even when you only eat 1/3 of one with your lunch).
C's mood today: I just put him to bed. The evening was full of tests (for both of us)-had to ask many times for him to sit down and finish his dinner, put his PJs on, stop jumping while I was trying to settle him down with bedtime books. Jeff and I picked him up from daycare this afternoon and our daycare provider told us "there was a lot of testing today', so it's a theme! :) On the bright side he was out cold when I left his room- I think' testing' and being tired go hand in hand.
Clean eating today: Hummus, veggies, rice crackers and a Vanilla Isagenix shake
Workout today: Cross Training day-35 minutes of interval training at 5am this morning before work-a combo of push ups, planks, squats, lunges, etc. Cross training and Strength training are extremely important to me to help me avoid injury while marathon training. I REALLY considered staying in bed this morning but after a 'talking to' with myself while sitting over the side of the bed, I am glad I got my workout done!

I cried yesterday and it wasn't pretty. Maybe I have been spending too much time with my 2 year old (if there is such a thing as too much time ;) and was modeling his behavior. My better theory is that I was the lethal combination of tired, hungry, and frustrated.
Imagine this-you have been up since 5 am, you completed a workout, a full 6 hours of giving your heart and soul to your clients as a health care professional, 2 hours of paperwork, picked up your two year old from daycare, wrestled together dinner, cleaned up dinner, greeted your husband returning from work after dinner, bathed your child and put him to bed , and finally you sit down to have a bedtime snack of Greek yogurt, berries and a handful of Kashi cereal. You calculate in your head the amount of carbohydrate you are about to consume and just as you are about to eat you pick up your remote for your insulin pump. You press a few buttons to get to the screen to enter your carb count and the remote keeps booting you out and won't allow you to take the insulin you need to eat your snack. Of course, you could eat the snack without the insulin, but if you do there is a high likelihood you will feel unwell and you certainly don't want to think about the other health implications that come with high blood sugar.
How did I handle this? At first I was frustrated and mad. I changed over to my new pump and pods yesterday and knew there was likely going to be some differences from the previous setup. I guess I knew this, but I wasn't prepared. I had meant to read the new user's manual, but between being a mom, work, marathon training, and the rest of my to do list, I just have not found the will or the want.
And the best time to read a User's manual is when you are looking through your own tears, am I right?
Jeff was lovely. Thank goodness for him. He came over to me, put his arms around me and just listened to me sob uncontrollably. I also shared a few choice words about my disease and where it could go. At one point, Jeff even tried to read the manual-he might as well have been trying to read Greek. Pumping is certainly user friendly but when you first learn Diabetic management it is somewhat like learning a new language. Hey, he tried, and I appreciate it.
In the end, I managed to figure out the pump (ie. I pressed a few buttons again and it seemed to sort itself out (?) and I enjoyed my snack. This was followed by an apparently much needed early bedtime and a few therapeutic snuggles from my husband and dog. Today was a new day (thank goodness!) and there was thankfully no crying. :)


Wednesday 22 January 2014

Nutmeg with a side of nutmeg

Morning blood sugar: holding steady at 5.3
Episodes of low blood sugar today: none
C's mood today: moments of sass with moments of sharing and kindness- a manageable balance
Clean eating today: oatmeal with protein powder, 1 tsp. natural PB, some almond milk and black coffee. For more info on my dinner tonight keep reading...
Workout today: 10 km on the treadmill 

Tonight I was on dinner duty. It is Wednesday, which means it has now been a good 4 days since I have set foot in the grocery store. When you attempt to 'eat clean' this time of the week is when you often start to run low on a number of fresh options in the fridge. I am really trying to become good at using up and eating what I buy 1- because groceries are hella expensive these days and 2- going to the grocery store more than once a week with your two year old is simply something to be avoided if you can; it can be stressful to go to the store, and also I would much rather spend time with my son at the park and not sweating it out in the grocery store.
I had a great plan for dinner- I was going to make a dinner of mini quiche with the imitation crab and phyllo pastry I had in the freezer and the spinach I had in the fridge that was on the verge of going soggy.
All was going well.I got the pastry cut and placed in muffin tins, the spinach and crab were on the stovetop with onions and olive oil. I go to shake a sprinkle of nutmeg into the spinach mixture and the wholly top on the spice jar comes off and with it 2 tablespoons of nutmeg into my crab and spinach! I try to scrape out what I can but a lot has fallen in between pieces of spinach. I press on hoping that maybe a lot of nutmeg will taste good? I even think "maybe this will be a great discovery! Maybe a ton of nutmeg will taste delicious?" 
Wrong. Bitter and horrible. My husband, who rarely complains ( because let's face it, I'm a type A who rarely strays from a recipe) likens the meal to reminding him of diesel fuel (? In taste or smell? I'm hoping in smell!). I don't consider myself too picky either but the taste was so strong I threw out my 'planned'leftovers (Jeff insisted he would eat his. He is being kind, and I certainly won't be insulted if I find a receipt for a bought lunch tomorrow with his things). Nutmeg with a side of nutmeg anyone? I'll pass! Hmmph!
They don't look bad but this is deceiving!! This dish should be called "Nutmeg overload"

Tuesday 21 January 2014

A Diabetic's Dream-Homemade Protein Bars

Morning blood sugar: 5.3 :)
Episodes of low blood sugar today: None :)
C's mood today: He remains a lovely boy but is really 'testing' the bedtime thing these days. Some days (like last night) it is fairly easy, sometimes it is tough. Jeff and I have tried a lot of things-we lie down with him, we read an extra book, we give lots of warnings "in five minutes, we will turn out the light..." Tonight was tough because it ended with him crying and asking us to stay, even though it was way past when he should have been asleep. This was after we gave him lots of chances to settle down....so the long and the short of it is, we left him to go to sleep on his own, which meant some crying and calling for "Mommy!" and "Daddy'' Rip my heart out and stomp on it? Yes please.
Clean Eating today: Jeff was very nice and made dinner. In fact he made dinner for himself, C and myself, and my parents who I picked up from the local airport just before dinnertime; they were away visiting my sister and her family. He made baked chicken drumsticks (marinated in some olive oil, spices and BBQ sauce), brown rice, veggies, and I made a salad for the side. Jeff gets sick of salad, which I understand, I eat it a lot-it fills me up and is awesome for blood sugar! But I am a bit obsessed with having lots of veggies these days-so I wasn't going to ask him to make me a salad on top of what he had already made. :) Everything was delicious!
Workout today: 6km Tempo run on the treadmill first thing this morning.

I'm posting a recipe today for all to enjoy. One of the things I absolutely love to make these days are homemade protein bars. Prior to my diagnosis, I use to eat a lot of store bought protein bars-they certainly keep you satisfied more than say a regular granola bar (due to the nice balance of carbs and protein) but unfortunately, even though a lot of them are 'not that bad' in the carb count department they are carb bombs disguised in wolfs' clothing (if you know what I mean)-not the best for blood sugar. They tend to put me up, which was initially so frustrating. So, glad to say I have found a great alternative!

No Bake Chocolate Coconut Protein Bars
originally in Oxygen Magazine-modified by yours truly :)

2 cups large flake oats
4 scoops vanilla or chocolate protein powder (I use high quality New Zealand whey for it's known limitation of additives and other nasties)
1 1/2 Tbsps cocoa powder
1/4 coconut oil, melted
3/4 cup fresh shredded unsweetened coconut 
1/2 cup unsweetened almond milk
2 Tbsps mini chocolate chips (2 Tbsps go a long way! At least when you are Diabetic :)
1/4 cup dried cranberries

Mix all ingredients together. If sticky, you can add more oats or coconut. Place paper muffin liners into 9 muffin cups-take approx. 1/3 cup per bar and squish (yes, that's a technical term) into each liner, attempting to make 9 equal bars (don't worry, some will end up a bit smaller, some a bit bigger. Nobody's perfect!). Place in the freezer and set for 15 minutes. Once set, wrap liner and bar in plastic wrap and store in the fridge to grab and go! Because who doesn't need some convenience in their lives??!!
Hope you love them as much as I do. They truly are a Diabetic's dream-a great snack or sweet treat when you are in need, without the junk and nasty high blood sugar that frankly nobody wants!



Monday 20 January 2014

New Pods, New technology!

Morning blood sugar: 5.3- the winning streak continues! :)
Episodes of low blood sugar today: zip, nada. Another win- I like to win :)
C's mood today: I only got to see him this morning for a quick hug and smooch before heading to work. He slep great though! Until 6:55. Win, win! I am on my way to pick him up shortly.
Clean eating today: lunch was a mixed salad with a 1/2 cup of quinoa and a sprinkle of goat cheese with balsamic dressing. Dessert was a small homemade protein bar with coconut and dried cranberries. So good!
Workout today: a 5 am wake up again with an old workout from my fitness challenge this past December called 'quadruple the fun' 40 minutes of intervals consisting of upper and lower body strength exercises with burpees mixed in. Finished in time for a shower and my first client at 7:20am.

I'm excited today- new pods arrived for my insulin management system. They are something like 30% smaller than what I am currently wearing. The crazy thing is they also sent me a new remote for my pump as well ( also known as a PDM). I guess the new pods require a new remote with new technology. Amazing what these little things can do- they provide a steady stream of baseline insulin (basal rate) and a larger amount for when I am eating (a Bolus that it calculates according to the grams of carbohydrate I am consuming). Yay for technology! Yay to Omnipod for striving for smaller pods- making my disease a little less noticeable to me. Feeling very blessed and fortunate to have access to such a great system, a system that makes me feel more like my old non- diabetic self. I wish every diabetic could access this!
The first picture shows the new pods on the right. They are not as long and not as wide. This day is full of wins! Happy Monday everybody- hope your day is full of wins as well!
 

Sunday 19 January 2014

Namastes & Nachos

Morning blood sugar: 5.4 (Capital P-perfect! The ideal waking blood sugar is between 4.6-5.6. The Type A in me is all proud when I am within range, when in reality I am quite aware sometimes you can do everything right and still have weird numbers. Anyhoo, I'll relish my 'perfect score' anyways :)
Episodes of Low Blood Sugar today: None! Hooray :)
C's Mood today: Good. Napping currently :)
Clean Eating today: Protein Pancakes for breakfast with berries and a latte. It's Conference Championship day today in the NFL so we had a fun lunch of 'Healthy Nachos'. I know what you are thinking, how are nachos healthy? Or how can you make them healthy for that matter? Well, I tried my best and used blue corn organic chips, low fat cheese (easy on the cheese! Even though it is so yummy!), lots of veggies including bell peppers, black olives, tomatoes, and we used Yves Ground Round instead of ground beef. For toppings-spicy salsa. So good!  For a beverage I had lots of water and (gulp!) a beer. A treat for sure!
Workout today: A rest day from running, so Jeff and I did 1 hour of Power Yoga with Rodney Yee.

I have a new found love in my training routine: Regular Yoga. I know there are Marathon training programs out there that have you running 5-6 days per week, but for me that simply doesn't work for my body. My joints need a break and I need some time to work on strength and flexibility. I got the idea to incorporate more Yoga into my training from my lovely co-worker, Megan. She finished her first FULL marathon last October. At the time she was training for her race, I was training for Iceland. We would often compare notes on the workouts we had completed, or were going to complete, and I noticed sometimes if she was tired, or just in need of a break from the grind of running, she would say to me, "I'm not doing that today, I'm going to Yoga." She finished her race in a great time, and more importantly felt great during her race, so it is my hope that more Yoga will do the same for me. Here's hoping Megan is on to something, right? It's worked before so why not?

I know it is not quite the same, doing a Yoga DVD at home versus going to a class. In fact when C was a newborn, the few outings I got take solo often included a Yoga class, which was fabulously therapeutic in that post-partum period. Currently, it just works better for me to workout at home-Yoga sessions included. So these days I usually practice Yoga, as I did this morning, with PBS kids playing in the background. Jeff and I followed Rodney, while C watched 'Peg plus Cat' and 'Dinosaur Train'. It works for us, and it felt great. Namaste.
Trying to get both kid and dog in a picture. Just breathe.
Furry baby with C in his superhero PJs in the background


Not every husband can do this, am I right? :)



Saturday 18 January 2014

Crossing to the dark side

Morning blood sugar: 4.1 (cutting it close-changed my pod moments before bed, but this close call is more likely due to my 6.5km speedworkout earlier in the day, on Friday)
Episodes of Low Blood Sugar today: I can't be totally certain, because I didn't pull out my blood glucose monitor in the middle of the grocery store, but as I was putting my groceries onto the belt at the checkout my head started to feel like it weighed 100 lbs. And the world was spinning a bit, like when you have one too many glasses of wine. This was happening at the 'dicey' time of grocery shopping, as every parent knows- THE CHECKOUT. Typically by this point in your shopping your kid has had enough of sitting in the cart, it is lunch time, you are both hungry, and you are trying to keep them occupied. Truth: I had the cashier scan a bag of 'Goldfish crackers' and ripped them open for C while I took 2 Glucose tabs (ie. chalk disguised with fast acting sugar in them) so that I didn't pass out before I could pull out my Visa. After eating the tablets and downing half of the top of the ginormous muffin I had purchased for C and I for a 'Saturday treat' I measured a 6.4 back at the car. Phew.
C's mood today: Pretty fabulous. Took him to the park, he helped clean the bathrooms at home (he likes the spray bottle I have for vinegar, what can I say? And kids need to learn to clean, right? A teaching activity right there. Haha. No meltdowns today. There has definitely been 'testing' as in, it took 3 extra slides to get him to leave the park, and some bribes with snacks (see above) but overall a successful day with my 'almost 3' year old. Woot woot.
Workout Today: 16 km Long Slow Distance Run-at the crack of dawn this morning. Yawn!
Clean Eating Menu Today:Well if you read the above you will know I indulged in a huge, store- bought muffin for lunch-a carb bomb in many ways. I ate only the 'muffin top' as this thing was seriously huge. It was a "West Coast Trail Muffin" so it had some good things in it like nuts, pumpkin seeds, and grated carrot. I can't say that it didn't taste like an indulgence, because it sure did. There was certainly some 'white crack' in it (ie. Sugar)- ok lots of white crack. And this presented itself afterwards with a feeling of wooziness and heartburn. Ugh-treats use to be fun. Now my body is a well oiled machine. It's like putting regular gas in your fancy sports car instead of premium-just shouldn't be done. :( On a positive note: breakfast was a recovery Vanilla Isagenix shake, a piece of whole grain toast with 1 tsp natural PB, and half a sliced banana, 1/2 a grapefruit with some coffee straight from my wonderful Lime Green Bodum/French Press that my husband bought me for Christmas. Delicious! And I didn't feel sick after.

I can't believe it has been over a month since my last entry. Man life is busy and going by fast. I am trying to take a page from my beautiful friend Allison. She recently got her own blog up and running and I thoroughly enjoy it; she is expecting her first babe any day now, in fact, she might be in labor as I write this! Good luck AB! Anyways, sometimes her entries are long, sometimes they are just a simple picture. Either way-I like following it and look forward to more of it. So I have decided I need to post more-even if it just a picture or recipe or quote. I miss writing when I don't do it, but sometimes an entry feels overwhelming before I have begun.

It's official, I have crossed over to the dark side. This is for 2 reasons:
1) I am currently training for my first full marathon
I am registered and attempting to complete the Vancouver Marathon This is mileage (kilometerage?) like I have never seen before-it is week 3 of training and my weekly mileage is already at 38km. Wow. No wonder they call it 'the dark side'. Jeff and I discussed me signing up a while ago. Sometime during this discussion I told him about marathons and ultramarathons held in extreme climates-there is one marathon that is in fact run through Churchill, Manitoba, where the article I read about it stated runners 'have to be vigilant for roaming polar bears' (!!!!!????). After telling Jeff about this I recall saying "who would be crazy enough to want to do that?" To which my husband said "I think you have to be a little crazy to want to do a FULL marathon". Yup, that's me. C-R-A-Z-Y
2) I think I am now officially a morning person now.
I was up this morning at 4:50am. The dog got me up, she needed to use the 'facilities'. But truthfully my alarm was set for 4:55am. I have been trying to do my long runs on Saturday morning before my husband goes to work. One reason being, it is nice to get it done and the second reason being to not have it interfere with our weekend as a family. I do realize this is absolutely extreme. The weird thing is I heard the dog at 4:50am and I woke feeling well rested and alert. Who am I? As a teenager my mom and sister hated waking me in the morning before school because I was a serious bear. The family dog would eventually be sent in-I guess I would taper my wrath for something with a furry body and cold nose. :) You know you are on the dark side when even telling people you were up at 4:50am seems like a ludicrous thing to tell people. Yup, it's official. The crazier thing is, that when I am up early I feel amazing!
This was me this morning! Haha not really, but kinda

The old me. :)