Busy body

Morning blood sugar: 5.1 -right on target ;)
Episodes of Low blood sugar today: none to date, teetering on the edge with a few 4.1s
"C's" mood today: I'm going to do a big 'sigh' here :) I have been doing some deep breathing today, summoning some patience for this 'I'm going to play devil's advocate' toddler by the name of C. I ask if he wants yogurt, he says 'yes', I get the yogurt and attempt to hand it to him, he swats the yogurt out of my hand onto the floor. Repeat this scenario with books, water cups, clothing, etc. :) Just smile and enjoy this phase Amy, right?
Clean eating today: Found this amazing cookbook at the library this week called "Parents need to eat too" www.parentsneedtoeattoo.com Wish I had had this on hand about two years ago when I was 9 months pregnant with C-you live, you learn. Cooking ideas as the author, Debbie Koenig says, "nap-friendly recipes, one handed meals, and time-saving tricks for new parents" or parents of an almost-2 year old!
Workout today: 12 wonderful kilometers of solitude this morning in the Vancouver Island sunshine- I was back home by 9am. Fantastic.

It is gorgeous here today. 12 degrees and sunny. This following 3 days of dark gray skies and torrential rain-ok maybe not torrential, but the kind of rain that soaks you in 10 minutes. Not the kind of weather you can get out and enjoy. Not like today; today is beautiful.

What is it about sunshine that makes me want to accomplish 10 million things at once. I want to scrub my house and air it out, I want to blog, I want to get some fundraising things ready, I want to try new recipes, I want to go outside with my son. I want, I want, I want. Deep breath Amy! Maybe you should go have a nap! Yes, that is probably what I should do. I have been fighting a scratchy throat and congested chest for what seems like 2 weeks. But something about the sunshine makes me want to check stuff off my to-do list.

I'm gearing up for a very busy week. I have appointments to attend-1 will hopefully accomplish the goal of getting started on my insulin pump (scheduled for Wednesday-we will see how things go). I'm excited but nervous at the same time. I wanted to make sure and have some good workouts this weekend because Margaret, the nurse at the Diabetic Education Center, has told me that for the first week of being on the pump I will have to avoid exercise so that we can get my basal rate of insulin sorted out (ie.the small amount of insulin the pump will be feeding me continuously). Apparently exercise complicates things a little too much to try and figure things out to begin with (who new? :).

So for an exercise junkie like myself (not to mention I am in the middle of a training program!) I am going to try and make the most of my exercise-free week. Jeff and I have a mortgage appointment Thursday (Yawn! But something a responsible adult cannot escape); I will try my best to avoid that "eyes glazed over stare" my face assumes when people start to talk about financing and investments-thank goodness for my husband, he loves that stuff.  Friday I have an appointment with my co-worker Lana-she is an acupuncturist. After a year of talking about it,  I am going to let her get her hands on me-should be great, am looking forward to it (for those of you that don't know, I treat with acupuncture as part of my physiotherapy practice. It can do amazing things, and really works for me. For some, the results aren't as outstanding. But let me just say there is a reason why this form of treatment has existed for thousands of years!).

Now hopefully I can get started on some more fundraising things as well this week, ideally today. I have some ideas, but just need to put pen to paper (so to speak). I am $2,495.00 away from my goal of $6,500.00- and $1,995.00 away from the minimum requirement of $6,100.00 to make it to Iceland. Daunting, I know. But when I look at the fact that I have to date managed to raise $4,105.00- I am more than 2/3rds of the way there. Amazing! Still can't believe where I am at!

But having said that, I am going to follow my son's lead and have a nap! This other stuff can wait. At least for an hour. :)

Hello sunshine!

It's just an ache

Morning blood sugar: 3.7 (eek, a little low, but I felt ok, I seem to be low the next morning after having wine, even if it is just a couple of glasses. Or three :)
Episodes of low blood sugar today: None. Nice and steady all day, not high, not low, but just right. :)
"C's" Mood today: Good. Running errands with him these days are a workout in itself. Was happy to have tag team action for groceries today with my husband. C refuses to ride in the grocery cart these days and is not above running where he pleases through the store-hence we are running as well. 
Workout today: Along with grocery shopping, 40 minutes of yoga=wonderful. My legs needed it after a hill workout yesterday. I skipped Shavasana (corpse pose) as this is difficult to do without your toddler jumping on you while doing yoga in your basement home gym area.
Clean eating: Jeff's homemade pizza with a salad for dinner; he topped with veggie ground round, sundried tomatoes, olives and mushrooms-so delicious!

My girlfriend recently had her second child, just over a week ago in fact. She posted some pictures of her beautiful new daughter-that snugly, sleepy, smelling amazing newborn phase, I feel like I could almost smell her from across the country. This huge event in my friend's life has me thinking about a lot of things. When your first child is inching closer to 2 people begin to ask 'when are you going to have another one?' more and more frequently. 

Seeing my friend's new babe has me realizing that having another baby is no longer absolutely out of the question. In fact in the last few months I have seen pregnant ladies in the mall, or little babies in the grocery store and I get that "ache" that women always speak of-I'm guessing if this ache had a
name it would be called 'the baby ache'. 

It has been comforting for me to feel that ache once in a while because for a while I thought I would never feel it again. I adore C, he is my world, but in my first year of motherhood, to my surprise, I felt like a fish out of water. In other times of my life I have certainly felt the discomfort of not being good at something, or feeling that I wasn't exactly cut out for a certain activity. I never expected to feel so incapable and so overwhelmed as I did in that first 10 months of motherhood. 

Prior to having my son, I had this idea that I wanted three kids, and that if I was able, I would stay home full time to look after them. When C was about 6 months, I remember calling my sister in tears and saying something along the lines of "I don't think I can do this again" and "how do people handle two kids?" Of course, in her reassuring way, she calmed me down and reassured me that it was far too early to be worrying about 'the next baby' and that one day I would feel differently. Thank goodness she was right, the 'ache' has let me know that.

The diabetic in me is not quite there though. And the athlete as well. In fact, the idea of becoming a mother again as a diabetic is terrifying to me. I have been told by my endocrinologist that when you are diabetic, your pregnancies are 'planned' and that you are now in the 'high risk' category of pregnancies. This is a bit hard to swallow for me, not the planning part (I have that down), but considering I was never even plagued with morning sickness while pregnant with C (don't hate me, didn't puke once) this high risk thing doesn't sound too appealing. 

I'm just getting myself sorted out these days, I can't imagine currently making adjustments for a growing fetus as well. According to the doctor, insulin needs increase from 50-300% in pregnancy. Mind boggling for someone who feels they are just getting a handle on things, for themselves.

And of course I have that half marathon I'm training for as well. Oh right, and another $2,000.00 to raise. :) I'm realistic here-this is not the best time to reproduce again. I know that eventually it can be done-my mother had two healthy babies back in the day when they didn't have the best diabetic management tools, and it will be done if Jeff and I so choose. But right now, I am happy to simply feel that 'ache' once in a while, sniff those newborns in the grocery store, and enjoy having my body to myself-faulty pancreas and all.

 






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